Not the accepting of compliments. Although I admit, that has never been my strong point. But the ability to wear a necklace for over 12 hours, that was the milestone. ItвЂ™s been almost a year since I could do that.
When told that I required brain surgery for Chiari I Malformation many things went through my mind. The obvious: would I live or die there are always risks; what kind of aftercare I would require and who could provide it a complication of living alone; the possibility of staff infection I am a nurse after all.
But, as all these things ran through my mind I never considered that I would have major changes in common, ordinary everyday things.
I had no clue that my head would feel like it had a two-by-four attached to the back of it, stealing the simple pleasure from lying on my back or reclining in a warm bath.
I had no clue that my hair would be sore, literally, or that it would sparkle when the sunlight hit it. Not a comfortable feeling I might add.
I had no clue that wearing my favorite earrings would suddenly feel akin to hanging a cannon ball from each ear.
I had no clue that the seeming weight of my head would make sitting at the computer for more than five minutes totally out of the questionвЂ¦no writing then.
I had no clue that because my surgery also involved my cervical vertebrae that wearing a necklace would become unthinkable.
I had no clue about a lot of things. The list could go on and on. Honestly, IвЂ™m glad I didnвЂ™t know. There was enough to dread, enough to fret about without concerning myself with the foolishness of accessories.
Although the post-op symptoms are improving, I know my life will never be quite the same. Permanent nerve damage occurred prior to my surgery. Most of the symptoms of numbness, headaches, and pain like unpleasant relativesвЂ¦donвЂ™t seem to be going anywhere. Even so, the surgery was a resounding success. And I have the necklace to prove it.
Jane Carroll is an author, Life Coach, Registered Nurse, Reiki Master, Mother, Grandmother, and long-time student of life. She has one published book, Bertha-Size Your Life. Carroll has been a nurse for over 30 years and has seen her focus change from illness to wellness to wholeness, now seeing healing as a spiritual process even more than a physical one. She personally experienced this following brain surgery last winter. Carroll currently divides her time working as a School Nurse, blogging and writing her second book.